Poetry Drawer: Ghosts of the Past by Ayaan Fahad

I stab the earth’s soft soil,
Murdering a pure life
As I dig into its malevolent heart,
Burying Ghosts of the Past.

They drag me along
In graves
Deep, dark, dismal.
To chasms abysmal.

Phantoms and specters,
Residing in the labyrinths of my brain,
In chambers of my heart.
A memento echoes.

An ember star glimmers,
Shining faint hope
Over the remnants
Of my memories.

The grave hauls me within.
Trapped amid its jaws
I plead for light,
Struggling to reach the surface,
Each crevice
Haunts me.

A rose wilts
Over my grave.
I drown in the earth’s soft soil,
One with its malevolent heart,
A miserable life murdered.
Till stars blow into oblivion
Bound eternally;
To Ghosts of the Past.

Ayaan Fahad is a poet from Lahore, Pakistan. He aims to write poetry that emotionally resonates with people and captures things left unsaid, incorporating raw emotion within his works.

Poetry Drawer: Return Revitalized: Circumnavigating the bee yards: for Denise Levertov by Mark Young

Return Revitalized

Take comfort
in, not the
small things
but the familiar.
Return to
raw Miles, those
first pick-up

bands that
occasionally found
Coltrane in
there, equally
raw. Or the
Sherlock Holmes
stories. Bach

for the first
time, de Chirico
& Hieronymus
Bosch. Byzantine
plazas, gardens
of earthly delights
which were

previously un-
known but
so familiar. An-
cestral memories, the
starting places
at which you
still stop by, to

stand still
for a moment,
focus, &
come out of
ready
to hit the
ground running.

Circumnavigating the bee yards

Take what’s on
offer & then
move on, an op-
portunistic journey.
Circles that trace
the outside of
other circles,
in the nomadic

manner of those
beehives that I
saw alongside
the gravel road
tracing the south
bank of the river.


for Denise Levertov

          some
of the time

the line
goes taut
o-
illogical

& I am
beaten to
the body

left only with
a grab-bag
full

of  glassy-
eyed

head-
lines

“…the last day the sharks appeared.”

Mark Young’s most recent books are One Hundred Titles From Tom Beckett, with paintings by Thomas Fink, published by Otoliths in June, 2024; Alkaline Pageantry, published by Serious Publications in September, 2024; & The Magritte Poems which came out from Sandy Press in October. 

Yu can find more of Mark’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: Minding Gaps Between Stops by Michael Roque

Sharp whistle shrieks
between stops
from December Street to Jan Way—
Two, four, eight
eye to eye,
face to face
on a one-way train—
thu-thud
THU-Thud!
THU-THUD!!!

On track to a transitional pause,
doors seal all into a lit tube
engulfed by black
for an extended enough time
to get attached—
to feel connection
while speeding spark-lit rails
to a next destination—
THU-THUD!!!
THU-THUD!!!
THU-THUD!!!
JOLT!

Meeting eyes break
with a whiplash
at a platform where all migrate
on, off the train.
Last looks,
farewells, goodbyes,
wonders—
if any meet again face to face
on surface,
in train, someday,
while simultaneously swapping each out
for a fresh gaze—
THU-THUD!!!
THU-Thud!
Thu-thud
thu—
thud.

Born and raised in Los Angeles, Michael Roque discovered his love for poetry and prose amid friends on the bleachers of Pasadena City College. Now he currently lives in the Middle East and is being inspired by the world around him. His poems have been published by literary magazines like Cholla Needles, The New Yorker, The Literary Hatchet and others. 

You can find more of Michael’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: When Master-Mistress: These Wolf Eyes by Jim Bellamy

When Master-Mistress

When Master-Mistress madcap Jake fishes for veins and waters,
This lucent poem-page gets microphoned with ghosts and flashes;
And, wherefore a fatalism promotes sex for devishes and lashes, limers
Must annoint the birds of the worlds with bustlers and nailering swiners:
O, all this damned whored year, we have hardened
O, all these slammerings render puffers from adders and severings.

I intended to preach in a cold godspace but my penis daren’t pray.
And, these fractionatives hereby sunder-space from dogs on trays.
And the whirlers for dementives come sirenising for chronic slain
Wicked seagulls come easily for homers and proud slept eye-wind;
O, whence slazeners beget hurt from stoners then

To work all the nightlong days we protest for the skies of this mind,
Cosmos-made, delvered, shaggering with mad warblers under trees.
And, whenever summers snaps, a curtler for cad bumblers will use seeds
For some aldening blirter of a cat come loving and listening.
And we shall extemporise natural head-rests with shimmerings and tea,
And I shall abuse for the utmost best then fade to fucking graves.

These Wolf Eyes

These wolf-eyes will eternally feed mess to the meadows
Will, with a winded sun-at-sea gone grey, brokers for gallowers,
Shrapnelled, blurted, slammed,
Beget cool hard VDs from silly eggcups and teasers and facers
And I will send some deadener of a god-mumma come
Entissuing after a doubler of a walnut tree come sylvan for squirrels
And, whence wenders scrape doos on gut,
Me and macadam Eden-Aarons will wash all cups

And it was merely one million years ago when a ripply beauty came
Entertaining the all with prehistorics and fossilers and
Oh, and I have water-spind weedlers with contumely and distant rain,
Creepily enbriding some dodgy moon-flitters
And it was just about when true earth burned when hecklers on trains
Behested for stoned boys. I am alone in my vocal head-world.
I am intended to wed no-one.

We sink under vast rats as pilliory pled pillows with snaps and pearls. I
Have to hasten now to some maladies which,
Comedy-crafted, happens to die for bitchers as blakers use wits for wide
Woollen city-masques; and, oh, as we enbitcher for saviours,
Wiveners for dizzy farms will sickler for geezers unfound across sailors
And you are the famous child god used to own.

Do sweet memories forevermore affixed to lost valves and dementias
Or is it (with all the minds we seize) come charnelising after sickers; O, men
Must overturn the utmost sides of a swan-swarm
And, whatever the wynd of fears,
Me and madam macadam Naplers guested for pickers and lost spawns.

Jim Bellamy was born in a storm in 1972. He studied hard and sat entrance exams for Oxford University. Jim has won three full awards for his poems. Jim has a fine frenzy for poetry and has written in excess of 22,000 poems. Jim adores the art of poetry. He lives for prosody.

You can find more of Jim’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: Under Painted Grace by Michael Roque

Impoverished child—
for nickels, dimes—
bought by beauty.
Taught grace,
not from love—
but life confined.

Glamour-touched teen—
trained to speak—
to walk
for lust-filled eyes.
Stripped of name,
wrapped in robes,
to the highest bidding price—
child purity sold.

Woman fully realized—
through fog of an aged mind—
drifts upstream
from cherry-coloured Kyoto
to childhood slum
on a seaside,
the missing sister,
the parents long passed.
All gone—
without goodbye.

Born and raised in Los Angeles, Michael Roque discovered his love for poetry and prose amid friends on the bleachers of Pasadena City College. Now he currently lives in the Middle East and is being inspired by the world around him. His poems have been published by literary magazines like Cholla Needles, The New Yorker, The Literary Hatchet and others. 

You can find more of Michael’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: A day from life of Klaus Werner Swamp-Man by Paweł Markiewicz

The marvellous winter has come
with the most tender Christmas Eve

Klaus Werner Swamp-Man awaits dream
august Moment is revealed

Klaus a forester lives alone
in a clear home amidst the grove

In the evening praying by table
he enjoyed freedom of silence

Oracular characters come
after rook has visited his

The rook knows from the black raven
that there are marsh-treasure hidden

Next hydra bangs on the window
she gives to Werner the obol

He enchants tenderly the guest:

The eternal moor! Dream with us!

Then a Stymphalian’s birdlet comes
flying in dazzling-brilliant ways

The bird gives away an obol
the man told him the gorgeous words

Eternal moory landscape dwell!
such for the ghosts a meek landscape

Hereafter attends – Dionysus
sir of numinous moory homes

Third obolus – given away
therefor can be valid Klaus’ dream

Oboli are being given

Be the fen full of tender myths!

Mister Swamp-Man boasts of marshlands
they are free in eternities

Rook is nidifying in tree
the plant stays over the moor-mist

Bewitched landscape and dreamy bog
and women dream of moory fog

Two women seem to have been enchanted of the boglet (Paweł’s neologism) plainly in a propitious way.

Paweł Markiewicz was born 1983 in Siemiatycze in Poland. He is poet who lives in Bielsk Podlaski and writes tender poems, haiku as well as long poems. Paweł has published his poetries in many magazines. He writes in English and German.

You can find more of Paweł’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Pantry Prose: 1979, Hungary by Zary Fekete

The snow had just started, the first of the year. Hazy light through the clouds outside the window of our third floor apartment cast light shadows off of the slowly falling flakes.

“Is the hot water on?” Mom said from the kitchen.

I ran to the bathroom, climbed onto the side of the tub, and looked through the safety window on the water heater. The grill of blue flames popped on. “Yes!” I yelled and ran back to my Matchbox cars.

“Still on?” she called a moment later.

I ran back into the bathroom. There was a strong smell of burning. Flakes of black, charred plastic dripped from the heater. “Something’s wrong!” I shouted.

Her feet pounding down the hallway. She grabbed my arm and pulled me out. Firelight flickered on the hall wall.

Mom yanked open the front door and pushed me ahead of her down the stairs. She banged on our downstairs neighbour’s door. He opened it with a surprised look on his face.

(“Tell him we need help!”)

“Uncle, something happened. There is a flame in our toilet.”

He nodded and gestured for us to come in. We sat on his hard sofa while he talked on the phone, too quickly and complicatedly for me to understand. The firemen came. It was evening before we could return to our flat.

“Tell your mother the water heater must be replaced,” he said.

I nodded.

(“Tell him ‘thank you’.”)

“Thank you, uncle, for liking to help us.”

Our apartment was drenched.

“Dad will be back from his trip tomorrow. He’ll figure something out.”

We went to the neighbourhood restaurant for dinner walking through the fresh snow from earlier in the day. The snowfall had stopped and the night sky was frozen and magnificent. After I ordered the bean soup that was my favourite, the violin player approached our table, offering a folk song for a small tip. Usually Mom waved him off, but tonight she nodded to him. He played and sang. Mom listened.

“What is he singing?”

I listened a moment and then translated,

Dear mother, why did you birth me?

You ought instead to have thrown me

Into the river.

Then I’d not be a forgotten child.

She smiled and shook her head.

“Eat your soup,” she said.

Zary Fekete grew up in Hungary. He has a debut novella (Words on the Page) out with DarkWinter Lit Press and a short story collection (To Accept the Things I Cannot Change: Writing My Way Out of Addiction) out with Creative Texts. He enjoys books, podcasts, and many many many films. Twitter and Instagram.

Poetry Drawer: Rumination: The Cycle of Life: Winter Blossom: Beneath the Yew by Anthony Ward

Rumination

When the nights close in
Afternoons and evenings converge,
The long summer days having moved on.

Leaves capitulate like flames frozen upon the ember season
Gently stirred by the breath seen murmuring around the bough,
Serenaded by the nature of contemplation.

We confine ourselves from the numbing cold,
Consoling ourselves by the warmth of the fire,
Reassured by our reminiscences maturing in ardent grace.

As the perennial atrophy cauterizes the peregrination,
Before expectation burns through the vapours of matutinal glamour
Reaching across the vault of cerulean restoration.

Rising upon the orient horizon of an aestival veranda,
Spreading its symphony of molten nuance
Through the apparition of an ocean exhumed.

Climbing the balcony of postprandial pioneering
By intervening our denial,
As we observe the rumination.

Before surrendering to the season of grievance,
Where beauty’s acquired by its more alluring honesty
As opposed to more obvious estimations.

The Cycle of Life

Eventually the horizon will burn in turn with the darkened sky
And the moon shall shine as a fossil in homage of night,
Embraced with sanctimonious judgement of nature’s deceit
As stars journey passed escaping those forever still and vacant
With such privilege to witness destiny in its proposal
As summers arousal becomes weathered by autumnal mists,
Clearing for winters serrated breath,
Before the brides of benevolence provide many a mellow treat under this raw arrangement,
And we occasion ourselves into the clear revelation of calm turbulence,
Where time has no age.

Winter Blossom

No sooner has the snow died back from the ground and trees
Then the Galanthus and blackthorn blossom
Before the cherries shed theirs,
Providing a covering of snow through spring,
Crowned by the May bloom serenaded by elder
With the cow parsley and stitchwort amongst the verges
Where meadowsweet froths
As the oxeyes watch you wander by
Towards the woodruff and ransoms thawing along the riverside.

Beneath the Yew

A robin perches on the grave stone
Like a spirit watching out for me,
Cocking its body, then it’s head,
Before fluttering into the yew hedge,
Where a blackbird bounces,
Flicking the leaves to the side,
Rummaging amongst the decay,
To find a worm and end its life
In preservation of its own.

Anthony tends to fidget with his thoughts in the hope of laying them to rest. He has managed to lay them in a number of establishments, including Shot Glass Journal, Jerry Jazz Musician, and CommuterLit.

Inky Essays:  Anecdote, History, and Kashmir by Ghulam Mohammad Khan

In Anecdote, History and Kashmir, the writer explores the profound power of personal narratives to reshape our understanding of history. Through a compelling personal encounter on a highway, he captures the shared struggles of individuals caught within rigid systems, shedding light on the deeper, often-overlooked layers of authority, duty, and humanity. By juxtaposing this anecdote with broader historical narratives, the essay delves into how anecdotes serve as counter-narratives, challenging dominant historical accounts and opening windows to individual experiences that history tends to overlook. It draws on literary examples from George Orwell, Saadat Hasan Manto, and Basharat Peer to reveal the nuances anecdotes can bring to complex socio-political contexts like Partition and the Kashmir conflict. This essay argues that by embracing anecdotal storytelling, we can enrich historical discourse, deepening our empathy and understanding of human experiences that otherwise risk being lost in sweeping narratives. A must-read for those interested in the intersections of history, literature, and the lived experience of conflict.

An anecdote is a concise, frequently personal narrative that communicates a certain point or idea. Anecdotes are frequently used to shed light on a person, location, or occasion and can help make difficult concepts easier to comprehend or remember. They often add a humanizing or engaging element to writing and conversation. In their famous book Practicing New Historicism, Catherine Gallagher and Stephen Greenblatt assert that anecdotes provide a sense of authenticity and “the touch of the real” that exists both within and outside the mainstream historical succession. The mainstream historians, who usually view individual or small-scale events in relation to a broader historical background, find anecdotes insignificant and “mere rhetorical embellishments” or sometimes “as brief moments of respite from an analytical generalisation”. In contrast to the common assumption that considers anecdotes as methodologically inconsequential, Gallagher and Greenblatt propose a theory that regards anecdotes as equally significant as the grand historical narratives. They claim that anecdote could be conceived as a tool with which to rub literary texts against the grain of received notions about their determinants, revealing the fingerprints of the “accidental, suppressed, defeated, uncanny, abjected, or exotic” – in short, the non-surviving – even if only fleetingly. This interest serves the “effect of arousing scepticism about grand historical narratives, or essentialising descriptions of a historical period”. They further argue that anecdotes function as parallel narratives that have the potential to puncture the grand narrative sequence of historical explanations and become significant narratives in their own right. Anecdote, therefore, can sometimes be used as a methodological and counter-historical tool to assimilate the multiplicity of voices and discursiveness of memory.

Let me recount an anecdote. I was speeding along the highway, knowing I had just ten minutes left before the biometric attendance system at my workplace would lock me out. After 10 o’clock, the stern officer in charge made no exceptions. Even arriving one minute late meant submitting what he emphatically called “short leave,” leading to a deduction from our salary. It was a rigid rule we had grown accustomed to, just as we had grown used to the frustrating halts for army convoys on the road. But that day, desperation gripped me, and I gathered the courage to talk to the army man who had stopped me.

“I’m sorry, but could you please let me through? Our officer doesn’t allow us to mark attendance after ten, and if I’m late, my salary will be cut,” I blurted. He didn’t acknowledge my plea. Whistle in hand, he was focused on directing the vehicles into a line that stretched seemingly for miles, as if the road itself had surrendered to the endless convoy.

Just when I thought my words had been lost in the wind, the soldier, now weary from his whistling, approached my car. He spoke softly, a stark contrast to the authority he wielded with his whistle. “You don’t need to apologize,” he said. “I never want to stop anyone like this. I understand your situation. But I have to follow orders, just like you. Our officers are strict, and so are the rules. Sometimes I feel awful when I have to stop ambulances, but there’s no choice.”

He went on to tell me about his own life—his family back home working on sugarcane fields, and his recent marriage, a flicker of personal warmth amidst the mechanical reality of his duty. The convoy, slow and deliberate, began to pass. Meanwhile, I typed out my “short leave” request, ready to submit it as soon as I reached my office.

Before he returned to his post, the soldier, still holding his whistle, said in a quiet, almost apologetic tone, “I’m sorry.”

As I continued my journey, I found myself confused, unsure of whom to blame. Was it the soldier, who had politely disallowed me passage despite his own reluctance? Was it me, for leaving home a few minutes too late? Or was it the rigid, faceless authority on both sides that enforced such inflexible rules? Or the convoy itself, groaning defiantly on the road, indifferent to the small struggles of those caught in its path. In that moment, it felt as if we were all trapped in a system of invisible forces, each of us playing our roles, unable to break free. The soldier’s apology echoed in my mind long after I had driven away, a reminder that sometimes, in the grand machinery of life, none of us truly have control.

This anecdotal occurrence disrupts the usual flow of history, adding a personal dimension that counters its tendency to generalize and sum up complex events. In considering who writes history and the methods they use, we realize the limitations of historical narratives in capturing individual experiences. This anecdote humanizes a critical aspect of history, bringing in emotions and empathy while challenging simple categorizations of “dominant” and “oppressed.” For instance, the soldier who stopped me is part of a dominant power structure, yet he himself is subject to authority and rules beyond his control, revealing the disparities in power even within the dominant ranks. Such narratives puncture historical generalizations by focusing on lived experiences over broad assessments of the collective condition.

Symbolically, such incidents don’t aim to counter history but offer alternative perspectives, running parallel to official narratives and preserving the nuances of individual experience. Methodologically, the anecdote leans more toward literary expression than historical; it captures unique, singular moments that history often excludes. Where history concerns itself with the powerful—the structural frameworks of governance, policy implications, and broad societal changes—anecdotes reveal how these structures influence individuals, their relationships, and ultimately, their consciousness.

Literature’s strength lies in handling such anecdotes as, for example, demonstrated by George Orwell’s essay Shooting an Elephant. In this personal narrative, Orwell, a British officer in colonial Burma, describes the internal conflict that compels him to kill an elephant against his better judgment. The essay serves as an anecdotal critique of colonialism, showing how the colonial system oppresses both the colonizer and the colonized. This perspective on colonialism is unique to literature, which captures the emotional, internalized cost of imperial power that history’s structural approach may overlook.

The history of Partition in India illustrates this gap between historical records and anecdotal literary depictions. While history provides dates, statistics, and geopolitical causes, literature captures the visceral human costs of Partition, giving voice to individual stories often lost in official accounts. Saadat Hasan Manto’s short stories, for example, delve into the chaos, trauma, and moral ambiguity that Partition inflicted on ordinary people. In his story Toba Tek Singh, Manto portrays the absurdity of Partition through the eyes of a mental asylum inmate who cannot understand the new lines drawn across his homeland. By focusing on a single character’s plight, Manto reveals the emotional and psychological dislocation that numbers and policy discussions fail to capture. Similarly, Khushwant Singh’s novel Train to Pakistan uses a fictional village to depict how communal harmony was shattered by the violent upheavals of Partition. Through the lives of villagers who are suddenly divided along religious lines, Singh explores the betrayals, guilt, and unexpected kindnesses that emerged amidst the horror. These personal stories humanize the statistics of Partition, making us feel the tragedy on an intimate level.

Closer to home, our regional literature also uses anecdotes to offer powerful counter-narratives to mainstream historiography. Basharat Peer’s memoir Curfewed Night gives a brief anecdotal account of a 19-year-old militant in Shopian who, inspired by the Bollywood movie Tere Naam, grows long hair, frequently follows a girl to her college whom he admires and desires a romantic escape with for a life of peace. Yet the “militant tag” makes this impossible, highlighting the limits and personal sacrifices embedded within such a life. Peer also captures the longing that militants face for ordinary joys, like watching the moon while relaxing in their own homes. Peer writes, “Being a militant wasn’t only about getting arms training and fighting; it was also about being excluded from the joys of life. Being a militant was also about the near certainty of arrest, torture, death, and killing.” Similarly, The Collaborator by Mirza Waheed offers a fictional yet immersive exploration into the life of a young Kashmiri man in a heavily militarized zone. Through his collection of ID cards from fallen militants, Waheed’s protagonist serves as a haunting testament to both the personal and collective trauma of living amidst conflict. The “militarized wilderness” metaphor is powerful in underscoring not only the physical violence but also presents a different context to revisit history. On the other hand, writers like Arvind Gigoo, Siddhartha Gigoo, Rahul Pandita, Varad Sharma, and Chandrakanta offer an alternative perspective by documenting the displacement and struggles of Kashmiri Pandits. Through anecdotal depictions that go beyond polarized historical narratives, these writers bring forth the diversity of experiences, reflecting the profound pain of losing one’s home and culture, as well as the empathy needed to navigate the layered identities. Both approaches—Waheed’s focus on the militarized experience and the empathetic recounting of Pandit displacement—highlight the unique role of literature in capturing complex human dimensions. These narratives challenge monolithic perspectives, revealing how individual stories intersect with broader socio-political narratives, fostering a more comprehensive understanding of the conflict and its deeply human repercussions.

In this way, the anecdote does not contradict history but enriches it, filling gaps and offering perspectives that historical accounts alone cannot convey. By bringing these experiences to light, literature and anecdotal accounts reveal the human realities behind historical structures, creating a fuller, more empathetic understanding of our shared past.


Ghulam Mohammad Khan was born and raised in Sonawari (Bandipora); an outlying town located on the wide shores of the beautiful Wullar Lake. Ghulam Mohammad believes that literature is the most original and enduring repository of human memory. He loves the inherent intricacies of language and the endless possibilities of meaning. In his writing, he mainly focuses on mini-narratives, local practices and small-scale events that could otherwise be lost forever to the oblivion of untold histories. Ghulam Mohammad considers his hometown, faith, and family to be the most important things to him. He writes for a few local magazines and newspapers. His short story collection titled The Cankered Rose is his first major forthcoming work.

You can find more of Ghulam’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Flash in the Pantry: After all by Mykyta Ryzhykh

The snow is falling but do you care after all you are the night. The fire is burning but the stars do not warm and are insanely distant. After all you are the night of death. No one is born in a cemetery with a candle in their hands and this death continues simultaneously with the night. The river is endless. After all you are water and you are one with time. And everything around is censorship or self-censorship. And the jumping recitative of fir trees drinks the smooth surface of autumn. The last sip. But the truth does not exist. Death teaches after all death is our only teacher. Death learns hands and hands learn to sleep. Teacher or student? After all no one knows anything and this night an infinite amount of water has flowed into the future and all around is white and white. A black cry descends on the black snow. The ice cracks and the depth is endless. Minutes pour out. The years float by themselves like water in water. Seagulls cry. There are no more seagulls. There have never been seagulls before. There will be no seagulls and only beaks. Sound. The sound cracks. The forest of death noisily falls asleep and only the snowy night that touches your lips like an ellipsis. The word is your name. Cut a strand of silence and share the silence with it. Your grandmother was shot with a machine gun during the German occupation more than 70 years ago. Your daughter today looks at the sky and sees military planes shooting at the stars in the continuous darkness. Nothing has changed in the world for decades. The forest is squatting and the night shoots at the cast-iron milky back of the head at the soldiers sleeping in the barracks. The river of night floats by every second. After all. The future has never been here before. There is no future.

Mykyta Ryzhykh has been nominated for Pushcart Prize. Published many times in the journals Dzvin, Dnipro, Bukovinian magazine, Polutona, Tipton Poetry Journal, Stone Poetry Journal, Divot journal, dyst journal, Superpresent Magazine, Allegro Poetry Magazine, Alternate Route, Better Than Starbucks, Littoral Press, Book of Matches, TheNewVerse News.

You can find more of Mykyta’s work here on Ink Pantry.