
Early Morning Love Song
Despite the moon, nearly full, gliding
six inches above the western horizon
where that faint line of a Great Lake lies,
my couple of cardinals
amidst the etched grey of sunrise
say it’s morning,
and all the little birds believe them.
Despite me, nearing fifty, holding
two inches before hitting the midway
in a life as long as it ought to be,
my tired, allergic eyes
below a grey sketch of wild hair
see it’s morning,
and all the giddy cells believe them.
Despite this near-miss at late love, that the
last quarter-inch could not have slid down
like a pane shattering for joy,
my old sorrows roll over
in their fetching grey failure,
sigh, “It’s morning,”
and all the silly feelings believe them.
Vast
Just out of Minneapolis-St. Paul we seemed
briefly to stall as if to shadow
all those wispies drifting below.
The mazes of cul-de-sacs had given way
to assorted squares of barren fields,
their whiskered homesteads glued
to odd corners like stamps, wide ribbon
slipping backward and away, silent terrain
under a lazy canoe. Now the sun
has cast a grey ghost of our plane
down and to my right, framed it within
the awkward porthole, its sliding shade,
an unaccountable halo of rainbow—
and this ridiculous filigree of angels,
filmy leagues camouflaged in ether,
special recruits that mingle and network
like secret agents: the FBI of the sky.
But when we soon tilt and ascend
to the high status toward Denver, I know
all this silliness will vanish, angels fading,
becoming the thin air, and these fields will retreat
to compose vast sheets of stamps, re-impose
perspective, that inevitable severance
from everything that’s then re-imaginable.
Now
Once upon a then not long ago
enough the nows became
delicious, and every other then
took on its flat feel of “My,
how I have wasted…” Yes,
yes, you are who you are
because of blah, blah, blah—
all that dullness, too, that
boredom. But now you can
love the nows, love those
who show you, look forward
to a better later, even risk missing
this now or the next. Today’s
faint sun struggles to cast
yesterday’s delicate warmth—
but because it is now
here’s its half-fazing glow
through filtering clouds
and its more mottled effect
on water and the water’s still
steady sound and this alighting
bird who fans the translucent
arc of her tail feathers
through which you can see
the occasion you call now.
Butterfly Solipsism
A butterfly’s flapping over Costa Rica,
it’s sometimes considered, could initiate
the chain that leads to tornados in Toledo,
hopping and ripping the heart
from every-other quotidian home.
Or maybe its deft stretch-and-glide
could instigate the violent Mississippi’s
surprising rise beyond its subtle, stolid realm—
the dainty queen behind that vast rebellion.
So I suppose I could blame this monarch
that reigns today’s thermals—that just
licked six purple puffs in beach grass
then juked my breezy mind—
for the nicknamed waves of catastrophe
soon to sweep a sleeping Gulf,
the nightly news even proving it
via weather patterns green-screened
before the stocks and sports.
But instead I’m turning my grateful face
toward the nor’easter just breaching
the stony coast of my brain: when it
rattles shutter to sash to rafter,
I’ll unlatch the deadbolts, throw open
the windows, and ready my heart’s
musty guest bedroom in welcome.
If Hearts Know Best
Not wanting to disparage your heart (after all,
from its involuntary seclusion it pounds out
three trillion beats by the time it dies), but at best
it boasts only a sixty-percent ejection
of fresh blood from its left ventricle, out
its aorta, and into that vast vascular
network invented to re-oxygenate you.
And not meaning to disparage your sense of
what’s acceptable, but this sixty percent
is excellent, a D-minus that commends you!
Any greater rating and that concavity
would collapse, just like a kiddy pool sluiced
of too much water, or like when the sails deflate
and maroon the little schooner that is you.
What if such barely passing productivity
typified a few of our other endeavours,
a submediocrity chosen to achieve more
than the bleed-out of high achievement?
Imagine our ruminations running at only
sixty-percent efficiency. Or what about
sixty-percent modification to all our
manipulations? Over-identifications?
What if our self-doubt and over-reactions
were reduced to a measly sixty percent?
Or perhaps a forty-percent reduction of our
ambition to be liked? (We might become
likable!) Likewise, losing forty percent
of our judgment of judging, preaching
against preaching, desiring the return
of our adolescent desire, thinking
we know what we think we know?
And what if our love-sickened hearts sort of
met each other a little over half-way,
almost always gave each other a mere
sixty-forty benefit of the doubt, supplied
the minor nudge that’d tip our teeter toward
the other’s totter to strike the delicate
imbalance that’d barely make the difference?
Tracing Your Two Lines
There’s the one that goes round and round
with each revolving day, sunset to sunset.
For that, your eyes, looking west, would
streak the long exposure like faint tail lights
arcing away over recurring hills. The other
is different. It doesn’t depend on
where you stand, which way you face.
No matter, it releases from the daily spin and
wanders, a twirling girl’s sparkler in the dark.
Try pointing to any spot on a globe. Make it
the capital of any troubled country, and
after that miniature world turns your finger
in perfect circles, watch your fingertip trace
the course it takes as you continue your trail
from here to eternity. You’ll see it zigzags
a singular presence over the earth’s assorted
surfaces, drawing its own conclusions—
like you in this world, scratching out
a meandering, your own universe, your own
one-line sketch of this far-fetched existence.

D. R. James, retired from nearly 40 years of teaching college writing, literature, and peace studies, lives with his psychotherapist wife in the woods near Saugatuck, Michigan. His latest of ten collections is Mobius Trip (Dos Madres Press).
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