Pantry Prose: The Lido at London Fields by Neil Leadbeater

That summer, breaking into the Lido under cover of darkness was the one thing that preyed upon Jacko’s mind more than any other. In fact, it would not be unreasonable to say that it had quickly become an obsession. This whole idea of entering forbidden territory propelled him on to the point where it had begun to take possession of him. Jeanie and Rebecca, the other two students who made up what they called ‘the gang of three’ were not so sure.

‘What if we get caught?’ piped Jeanie. She was always the more cautious one of the three. ‘Suppose there are CCTV cameras all over the place, what do we do then?’

Jacko gave her a look of disdain. Jacko was thorough. He’d already cased the joint during the daytime and there didn’t appear to be any evidence of CCTV surveillance there at all.

‘Suppose the fence is alarmed?’ shouted Rebecca, as they ran across London Fields in pursuit of Jacko who was now well into the lead.

‘Look, do you want to come with me or not?’ he said, rounding on them suddenly as they neared the approach to the Lido. ‘It’s just a laugh.’ he said. ‘Yes or no?’

The girls looked at each other. Their hearts were beating like crazy and there was no time to lose.

There was a full moon that night and it shone directly on their faces as they stood there in the park captured by its glow. The thought of breaking into a 50 metre Olympic-sized, heated outdoor swimming pool when no-one else was around had its attractions.

Jacko had spent weeks walking round the perimeter, sizing up the fencing, studying it in detail without trying to raise any undue suspicion. He’d even made rough notes, gone home and prepared a full-scale drawing so that he could pinpoint with accuracy the one place where he had found a bit of leverage, a weak point, where it might be possible to gain entrance. His pockets were bulging with cutting equipment. Once they had broken through there was nothing to stop them returning night after night. The girls had towels concealed in their bags and were wearing string bikinis underneath their outer clothing. Jacko, who was not so modest, intended to dive in naked as the day he was born.

Even though it was one hour to midnight they were surprised at how busy the park was with night time cyclists, dog walkers and people going home from the pubs. They would have preferred it to have been much quieter so that they would be less likely to be seen but the place where Jacko had detected a weakness in the fencing was pretty well concealed by trees and bushes and away from the main thoroughfares of the park.

It took him a good half hour to cut away at the wire mesh before he managed to make a hole big enough for them to crawl through. The girls were edgy, constantly on the lookout for any movement.

By the time they got in, it was completely dark. They took a moment or two to acclimatise themselves to their surroundings.

‘Hey, let’s wait a while. This could be dangerous. We don’t want to fall in the pool,’ said Rebecca.

‘I’ve heard it takes a good half hour for the eye to adjust for darkness,’ said Jeanie, ‘Eyes adapt to bright light a lot faster than they do to darkness.’

Reckless as ever, Jacko just wanted to find his own way in the dark. He walked gingerly to the edge of the pool, tore off his clothes and dived in. The splash alarmed the girls who thought they might be found out but no one appeared on the scene.

Jacko swam back to the edge and tried to persuade them to come in and join him. The girls stood shivering in their costumes as they were still uncertain about whether or not to chance it in the pool.

As their eyes gradually got used to the dark, Jeanie suddenly spotted two deckchairs in a pool of moonlight out in the bathing area. She thought it was odd that they were out when all the other deckchairs had been stacked away. The nearer she approached the back of the chairs the more nervous she became. She was sure that they were occupied. There was something about their shape and their bulk, as if they each held a human body. She went and grabbed hold of Rebecca, pointing all the time at the chairs. When they got closer they stopped to listen for any sounds of movement or conversation but there was none. It was curious though that, despite the slight breeze, the canvas did not move. After contemplating the scene for a moment or two, they both lost their nerve and walked quietly back to where they had come from. Maybe they were not alone after all.

‘I don’t think there’s anyone there,’ said Rebecca. ‘How could there be?’

Why would anyone be there?’ said Jeanie. If anyone was there, she reasoned, they would have turned round as soon as they heard Jacko diving into the pool. At that time of night, the splash had seemed loud enough to wake up the whole Hackney.

Jacko emerged from the pool, dripping water all over the ground. They motioned to him to keep quiet but felt that they were safer down at this end of the pool.

‘For goodness sake, Jacko, cover yourself up,’ said Rebecca. ‘Somebody might see you’.

‘I think someone’s around,’ said Jeannie. ‘I don’t feel safe like this.’

‘Me, neither,’ said Rebecca. ‘Let’s get dressed and go.’

The next time they looked towards the two deckchairs, the breeze rippled through the canvas and the chairs keeled over on to the floor. Whoever had been there had left or was lurking about somewhere else nearby.

The girls got the jitters. Even Jacko began to feel uncomfortable. It was not long before they left by the way they had come and made their way back through the fields.

What had started out as a student prank had left a nasty taste. Suppose someone had seen them? What if they were being followed home? The girls, arm in arm, frequently looked behind them, being suspicious of anyone who might be on their tracks. Even when they got home, they worried about whether or not this mysterious someone, singular or plural, had made a mental note of their address.

*

Jeanie, who had always secretly had a bit of a crush on Rebecca, asked her if she could come into her room and sleep in her bed that night as she was still feeling nervous after what had happened at the lido. It was not an unusual request. They were very close and shared everything together, even their clothes.

‘I’ll be round in ten,’ said Jeanie.

‘Just come when you’re ready,’ said Rebecca. ‘I’ll leave the door off the latch.’

When Jeanie came in, Rebecca’s room was in darkness. She could see her friend clearly enough though because she was standing close to the window, feet slightly apart, in a strip of bright moonlight. She had her back to Jeanie and had taken off her clothes. All she was wearing was a gold-coloured, spandex G-string. Jeanie held her breath as she secretly watched Rebecca untie her hair and shake out her glossy black curls which cascaded halfway down her bare back. Jeanie, who had a page-boy cut, had always been envious of her friend’s long hair.

When Rebecca turned round, her face was flushed. Jeanie felt breathless. She was aching to touch her.

‘You’ve let your hair down. You look gorgeous, Reeby,’ she whispered.

Jeanie was in a state of confusion but Rebecca made it easy for her. She came up close, slowly opened her girlfriend’s blouse and whispered something in her ear which made her blush. In that moment, Jeanie lost all her inhibitions. She went limp like a ragdoll in her lover’s warm embrace. The two began to kiss until such time as they were no longer bathed in moonlight.

*

None of them slept very well that night which meant that they were bleary-eyed when they went into their lectures the next day. They all hoped that they could quickly put the night’s escapade at the lido behind them but it kept on nagging them in all sorts of stupid ways. In the refectory, for example, Jeanie picked up a magazine that was lying open on one of the tables she chose to sit at to have her lunch. You might think this was innocuous enough but her eyes were drawn to an article on the subject of moon bathing. Curious, she read on. The article stated that moon bathing was just like sun bathing. It urged readers to go outside when the moon was in full view and absorb its light. It recommended that you should find a restful space and do this in private with or without your clothes in order to experience the calming properties of moonlight.

When she met up with Rebecca she told her all about what she had found out.

‘You can do it with your clothes off,’ she said. ‘Just think of all that moonshine on your bare skin. If it’s a full moon you can align your energy with the lunar cycle. Because moonlight is actually reflected sunlight, it too can boost your vitamin D levels, as well as give you nitric oxide which helps to regulate blood flow.’

There was a long pause while Rebecca took in the significance of what her friend was saying.

‘What is it, Rebecca?’

‘Those two deckchairs we saw last night…’

‘What about them?’

‘You know when we thought that there were people sitting in them?’

‘Oh, you don’t think there really were people in them do you? You mean that they might have been moon bathers?’

‘It’s possible.’

‘They must have seen us when they got up to go.’

‘But how come we never saw them?’

‘I don’t know.’

Later that day, a couple of other students had spotted the same article. They caught up with the two girls and casually dropped the subject into the conversation.

‘Have you heard about this moon bathing thing?’

The girls looked startled.

‘It’s all the craze round here, apparently.’

The girls felt uncomfortable.

‘Fancy trying it with us….fancy taking your clothes off?’

Jeanie tried to make out that they did not know what they talking about.

One of the students looked at her and gave her a smile.

‘I think you do,’ he said.

‘How do you mean?’ she said. She was as nervous as a kitten jumping at shadows.

‘Because I saw you.’

‘Saw me doing what?’

‘You were reading the same article when you were in the refectory earlier’

‘Oh,’ she said, immediately relieved. ‘Yes, I did just glance at it.’

Perhaps he didn’t mean anything by the remark after all.

Several days later there was a piece in the local paper about the broken fencing at the lido which was put down to vandalism. Eventually the fence was repaired. The police were too busy to do any investigations. Jacko said there was nothing to worry about but the girls thought otherwise for the one thing that had been taken away from them that night had been their innocence. What had they been thinking of? It was moon madness. They had crossed a line into forbidden territory and now there was no going back.

Neil Leadbeater was born and brought up in Wolverhampton, England. He was educated at Repton and is an English graduate from the University of London. He now resides in Edinburgh, Scotland. His short stories, articles and poems have been published widely in anthologies and journals both at home and abroad. His publications include Librettos for the Black Madonna (White Adder Press, 2011); The Loveliest Vein of Our Lives (Poetry Space, 2014), Finding the River Horse (Littoral Press, 2017), Punching Cork Stoppers (Original Plus, 2018) River Hoard (Cyberwit.net, Allahabad, India, 2019), Reading Between the Lines (Littoral Press, 2020) and Journeys in Europe (co-authored with Monica Manolachi) (Editura Bifrost , Bucharest, Romania, 2022). His work has been translated into several languages. He is a member of the Federation of Writers Scotland and he is a regular reviewer for several journals including Quill & Parchment (USA), The Halo-Halo Review (USA), Write Out Loud (UK) and The Poet (UK). His many and varied interests embrace most aspects of the arts and, on winter evenings, he enjoys the challenge of getting to grips with ancient, medieval and modern languages.

You can find more of Neil’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: 5 by Grant Guy

the moon rises
a dog barks
a car drives over a broken tree branch

the branch cracks under the weight of the car

the moon rises
a dog barks


snap
snap

elastic broke

almost blinded him


when he looked out the window
all he saw was himself looking back

he cried a lifetime

then he laughed


words
i have no choice

they created me


eat
shower
work
supper
bed

no sex tonight

Grant Guy is a Canadian theatremaker, poet and visual poet and arts programmer. His theatre and performance have appeared in Canada, the United States and in Europe. He has published in hardcopy and online. He has visual poetry in the United States, Argentina and Brazil and in Europe. He is the recipient of many grants and awards.

Poetry Drawer: Self by Mitchell Krockmalnik Grabois

The core of the self is a magnet
which pulls in the physical world
and the stuff of human nature,
good and bad.
Once trauma is caught there, it is hard to dislodge,
the power of the magnet being strong

In this space occupied by “I”
is sunlight, water, air and earth,
also a little child who remains worried and fearful,
petrochemical sludge,
viruses and bacteria,
a need to love and to be cherished
and a desire to avoid pain

In this space is pollen, sunlight dispersed in a different form,
and seed, infant plants,
who blow over high desert and grassland
past cows and squirrels
and fish finning in ponds.
In this space is intelligence
and strategies designed to enable survival
but which may actually sabotage survival
In this space are tools, ever more powerful,
with which we strive to dominate our world
In this space is art, and sensitivity

In this space is air,
sometimes still, or moving steadily or gusting,
or appearing as wind, at times fierce,
which carries spirit from the far corners of the past
into the space of the distant future
Our small parcels of light
meld with the brilliance that streams from our star
and our drops of water join the ocean

We may clothe those winds with fantasies of reincarnation
in which we are kings or queens or famous scoundrels
However hard we work to clear our minds,
sometimes we backslide
into bizarre, irrational ancient mythologies
because their fantastic fictions,
tailored to the human psyche,
ease pain and
give hope

But these fantasies
take us out of the here and now,
which is the only place one can be
Even the immortal soul is transient

Deadly pathogens and fatal hostilities
are fed by the greed, anger and delusion
which reside in all human hearts
We are like the Tasmanian Devil
When we feel threatened,
In this universe which, some claim, is made of love
we viciously bite each others’ faces

Like orange lava,
pollutants well up
to run uncontrollably downmountain
toward cities and towns
which fill with ash and sulfurous smoke

Meanwhile, the need to love and be loved
embraces all persons’ identical craving
and pain shatters against the jagged afflictions of others

Mitch Grabois has been married for almost fifty years to a woman half Sicilian, half Midwest American farmer. They have three granddaughters. They live in the high desert adjoining the Colorado Rocky Mountains. They often miss the ocean. Mitch practices Zen Buddhism, which is not a religion, but a science of mind (according to the Dalai Lama). He has books available on Amazon.

You can find more of Mitch’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: Rites of Passage: After the rain, there will be rainbows: The watchers in the rye by Dr. Vaishnavi Pusapati

Rites of Passage

Encountering grief is a rite of passage,
like love and yet unlike it,
for grief is a long time coming,
a tiger dancing in the dry grass,
our bullets are pills and sometimes we run out of them,
sometimes we play dead, hoping the tiger will go away,
sometimes we are tired of losing so much, we have nothing to
tempt or trade with grief, nothing to scare him away,
and grief takes no prisoners, has no calm, no qualms.
In our grief we speak of the dead so often now,
we wake them, we envy them, we sing them lullabies.

After the rain, there will be rainbows

Illness is like damping of wood
but once it dries, irrational hope will flicker,
with the confidence of candles
against raging stormy winds.
But damp birds don’t fly well.
So we sit and hope,
for hope is a waking dream.
We shiver to warm our bodies
and ask, for we can only ask, our bouncing heart
to settle, to brace for impact,
as we mould ourselves again, again begin
twig by twig, after the rain, when the nests are destroyed,
gone like the dead, gone like the wind.
We bring healing, twig by twig, for new nests and new hopes.

After the rain, there will be rainbows.

The watchers in the rye

No cow turns to see us pass,
or that distant running train,
we, holding hands, so that,
should we fall, we fall together.
We pass by where there was a yellow wood,
where now, a yellow building slants, stands.
We, white as snow, as death, as bones,
as birds’ eggs in nests who do not know
that the mother bird is dead, far away.
Dead like a plant in cosmic darkness.
We like statues, the scarecrows of the elegant house gardens,
eternally grave in all tricks of lights, watching
the all too familiar glint of the moon on broken glass,
on shallow eyes of broken people, the sick and sickening,
who once played hide and seek with us, sat with us in schools,
who we met at birthday parties and broke lunch boxes with,
who are taller than us now and their ears can’t hear us,

who we almost touch like the wind, and then refrain.

Dr. Vaishnavi Pusapati is a physician and poet, previously published in nearly 50 international literary journals and magazines such as Prole, InkPantry, Palisades Review, Dreich, among others).

Poetry Drawer: Opposites: Sweet Times: What Beauty by Danny P. Barbare

Opposites

What
goes
together

but
opposites

like
bread
and
butter
pickles
and
olives.

Sweet Times

Snow
sifting
through
the
clouds

cooking
up
sweet
times

like
a
delicious
dessert.

What Beauty

What beauty is snow
anyway
but for children making
snow angels
snowmen and having
snowball fights,
while
adults stay warm by
the fireplace
drink hot chocolate or
have a glass of wine.

Danny P. Barbare resides in the Southeastern USA. He works as a janitor at a local school and writes poetry in the evening.

Poetry Drawer: Ghosts of the Past by Ayaan Fahad

I stab the earth’s soft soil,
Murdering a pure life
As I dig into its malevolent heart,
Burying Ghosts of the Past.

They drag me along
In graves
Deep, dark, dismal.
To chasms abysmal.

Phantoms and specters,
Residing in the labyrinths of my brain,
In chambers of my heart.
A memento echoes.

An ember star glimmers,
Shining faint hope
Over the remnants
Of my memories.

The grave hauls me within.
Trapped amid its jaws
I plead for light,
Struggling to reach the surface,
Each crevice
Haunts me.

A rose wilts
Over my grave.
I drown in the earth’s soft soil,
One with its malevolent heart,
A miserable life murdered.
Till stars blow into oblivion
Bound eternally;
To Ghosts of the Past.

Ayaan Fahad is a poet from Lahore, Pakistan. He aims to write poetry that emotionally resonates with people and captures things left unsaid, incorporating raw emotion within his works.

Poetry Drawer: Return Revitalized: Circumnavigating the bee yards: for Denise Levertov by Mark Young

Return Revitalized

Take comfort
in, not the
small things
but the familiar.
Return to
raw Miles, those
first pick-up

bands that
occasionally found
Coltrane in
there, equally
raw. Or the
Sherlock Holmes
stories. Bach

for the first
time, de Chirico
& Hieronymus
Bosch. Byzantine
plazas, gardens
of earthly delights
which were

previously un-
known but
so familiar. An-
cestral memories, the
starting places
at which you
still stop by, to

stand still
for a moment,
focus, &
come out of
ready
to hit the
ground running.

Circumnavigating the bee yards

Take what’s on
offer & then
move on, an op-
portunistic journey.
Circles that trace
the outside of
other circles,
in the nomadic

manner of those
beehives that I
saw alongside
the gravel road
tracing the south
bank of the river.


for Denise Levertov

          some
of the time

the line
goes taut
o-
illogical

& I am
beaten to
the body

left only with
a grab-bag
full

of  glassy-
eyed

head-
lines

“…the last day the sharks appeared.”

Mark Young’s most recent books are One Hundred Titles From Tom Beckett, with paintings by Thomas Fink, published by Otoliths in June, 2024; Alkaline Pageantry, published by Serious Publications in September, 2024; & The Magritte Poems which came out from Sandy Press in October. 

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Poetry Drawer: Minding Gaps Between Stops by Michael Roque

Sharp whistle shrieks
between stops
from December Street to Jan Way—
Two, four, eight
eye to eye,
face to face
on a one-way train—
thu-thud
THU-Thud!
THU-THUD!!!

On track to a transitional pause,
doors seal all into a lit tube
engulfed by black
for an extended enough time
to get attached—
to feel connection
while speeding spark-lit rails
to a next destination—
THU-THUD!!!
THU-THUD!!!
THU-THUD!!!
JOLT!

Meeting eyes break
with a whiplash
at a platform where all migrate
on, off the train.
Last looks,
farewells, goodbyes,
wonders—
if any meet again face to face
on surface,
in train, someday,
while simultaneously swapping each out
for a fresh gaze—
THU-THUD!!!
THU-Thud!
Thu-thud
thu—
thud.

Born and raised in Los Angeles, Michael Roque discovered his love for poetry and prose amid friends on the bleachers of Pasadena City College. Now he currently lives in the Middle East and is being inspired by the world around him. His poems have been published by literary magazines like Cholla Needles, The New Yorker, The Literary Hatchet and others. 

You can find more of Michael’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: When Master-Mistress: These Wolf Eyes by Jim Bellamy

When Master-Mistress

When Master-Mistress madcap Jake fishes for veins and waters,
This lucent poem-page gets microphoned with ghosts and flashes;
And, wherefore a fatalism promotes sex for devishes and lashes, limers
Must annoint the birds of the worlds with bustlers and nailering swiners:
O, all this damned whored year, we have hardened
O, all these slammerings render puffers from adders and severings.

I intended to preach in a cold godspace but my penis daren’t pray.
And, these fractionatives hereby sunder-space from dogs on trays.
And the whirlers for dementives come sirenising for chronic slain
Wicked seagulls come easily for homers and proud slept eye-wind;
O, whence slazeners beget hurt from stoners then

To work all the nightlong days we protest for the skies of this mind,
Cosmos-made, delvered, shaggering with mad warblers under trees.
And, whenever summers snaps, a curtler for cad bumblers will use seeds
For some aldening blirter of a cat come loving and listening.
And we shall extemporise natural head-rests with shimmerings and tea,
And I shall abuse for the utmost best then fade to fucking graves.

These Wolf Eyes

These wolf-eyes will eternally feed mess to the meadows
Will, with a winded sun-at-sea gone grey, brokers for gallowers,
Shrapnelled, blurted, slammed,
Beget cool hard VDs from silly eggcups and teasers and facers
And I will send some deadener of a god-mumma come
Entissuing after a doubler of a walnut tree come sylvan for squirrels
And, whence wenders scrape doos on gut,
Me and macadam Eden-Aarons will wash all cups

And it was merely one million years ago when a ripply beauty came
Entertaining the all with prehistorics and fossilers and
Oh, and I have water-spind weedlers with contumely and distant rain,
Creepily enbriding some dodgy moon-flitters
And it was just about when true earth burned when hecklers on trains
Behested for stoned boys. I am alone in my vocal head-world.
I am intended to wed no-one.

We sink under vast rats as pilliory pled pillows with snaps and pearls. I
Have to hasten now to some maladies which,
Comedy-crafted, happens to die for bitchers as blakers use wits for wide
Woollen city-masques; and, oh, as we enbitcher for saviours,
Wiveners for dizzy farms will sickler for geezers unfound across sailors
And you are the famous child god used to own.

Do sweet memories forevermore affixed to lost valves and dementias
Or is it (with all the minds we seize) come charnelising after sickers; O, men
Must overturn the utmost sides of a swan-swarm
And, whatever the wynd of fears,
Me and madam macadam Naplers guested for pickers and lost spawns.

Jim Bellamy was born in a storm in 1972. He studied hard and sat entrance exams for Oxford University. Jim has won three full awards for his poems. Jim has a fine frenzy for poetry and has written in excess of 22,000 poems. Jim adores the art of poetry. He lives for prosody.

You can find more of Jim’s work here on Ink Pantry.

Poetry Drawer: Under Painted Grace by Michael Roque

Impoverished child—
for nickels, dimes—
bought by beauty.
Taught grace,
not from love—
but life confined.

Glamour-touched teen—
trained to speak—
to walk
for lust-filled eyes.
Stripped of name,
wrapped in robes,
to the highest bidding price—
child purity sold.

Woman fully realized—
through fog of an aged mind—
drifts upstream
from cherry-coloured Kyoto
to childhood slum
on a seaside,
the missing sister,
the parents long passed.
All gone—
without goodbye.

Born and raised in Los Angeles, Michael Roque discovered his love for poetry and prose amid friends on the bleachers of Pasadena City College. Now he currently lives in the Middle East and is being inspired by the world around him. His poems have been published by literary magazines like Cholla Needles, The New Yorker, The Literary Hatchet and others. 

You can find more of Michael’s work here on Ink Pantry.