Echoes in the rain
of a long lost prayer
resonate around a silent room.
Iced feathers, as from Angels’s drift
Engulf my soul, my heart, my world
With blessings of love renewed.
Death’s true calling
was music: he built
a piano, with keys
of blanched bones;
strung it with sinews
and tuned it with
secrets, from the grave,
exhumed and stolen.
From it, he wrung
symphonies of emotion,
the elusive spectrum,
and let the searing melody
surround him –
empty spectator,
dancing on the
other side of the veil.
Snatches of different languages. I look up
the steps of the Sydney Opera House.
Scattered pockets of tourists climb and run up.
There’s a universal bravado about it all.
Birds of paradise bordering a concrete vaulting,
blown trash whipping at the chain-link fence.
The flora is lush, random and leggy,
limbs smooth as butter-cream stride on by.
Flip-flops slop maintaining a momentum
which travels up the body. Slight girls
in tight skirts drag wedge heels behind
their rucksacks hobbling the posture.
A scene of transience, paradise bordering.
Blown trash whipping at the chain-link fence.
Plaited Patricia sits gawky and awkward:
long legs, short dress, tight bodice, puffed sleeves.
She clasps shiny knees with rough red hands,
swollen fingers catching in fancy laced linen.
Pin-striped legs tucked under his chair,
with bony knees so carefully aligned,
grandfather Crampton’s copper plate fingers
clasp a bone china handle. He lowers his lips
to a porcelain rim. Such Edwardian restraint.
An elegant gesture accomplished with ease.
She cannot do likewise, plaited Patricia,
her fingers scramble to find any purchase
on willow pattern handles. Her efforts slip slop
spooling hot tea over misaligned knees,
down purple calves to her leather tongued shoes.
Fumbling and scrabbling in her dress pocket
miscellaneous crumbs join tea trails and
fine crocheted doilies are caught in the snag.
A tumble down teatime descends to the lawn.
Those pin-striped knees engineer a small turn
and a genteel white head with a weak wan smile
responds to this mishap, with scarcely a nod.
When I wanted to run a home
for stray elephants, my parents
gave me a big book – Wild Animals.
I opened it. Smooth
semi-gloss pages
slipped and slithered
through anxious little fingers,
hundreds of heavy pages.
I picked it up, its heft was great,
and set it splat on a table,
leaned over and placed
my nose right there
into its folded down wings,
closed my eyes,
eased into the jungle,
into a mystery
that has never left me.
I know all the aromas,
I’m expert now,
all the papers, printing inks,
the surface similarities,
the differences, PH values,
antique and azure laid,
bible paper, thin, opaque,
bond or base or clay-coated,
laminate or plain, off-white,
or low opaque to minimise
the show through text.
Add cold-set
lithographic ink,
head-set, sheetset or web offset.
And now my son,
via Gunter Grass and Gerhard Steidl,
Robert Frank and Tony Chamber’s
has sent a birthday gift:
a bottle in a book, a book in a bottle:
Paper Passion – sniff me!
I have known death
have been close to it
watched a man die
heard my own death
whisper in the room
I am fifty-eight
each year of me
has seen violent death
in the name of causes
for this regime that power
to start something
end something
remember something
these detached deaths down the ages
did not touch me at my core
I did not know their smell
fragrance of oils that seep
from skin and hair
I did not know their voice
or know their breathing
I did not wave them off
to war to work to shop to play
I did not properly love them
these deaths will churn
in the loop of time
that holds the Earth
I will suck molecules
that held their last breath
I will feel their currents
timeless waves of lost
our carbon converging
in footprints of gone
I could not properly love them
How can I explain,
thirty years of hole
now filled, like an electric light
in a sea-storm of cyan
salt and introspective madness.
How can I portray
red boot-lace nerves
that weep, now relaxed after
a life of brass piano-string tension
and grating humming burning.
How can I convey nothing,
nothingness,
blackness,
blackness,
hole, and
hole,
except by something
lovely and hot, melting, flying,
rays like arms of fire that stretch
and connect and feel, caress,
weep, and love.
Dun fronds of undulating seaweed
mimic each subtle pulse of current
along endlessly repeated branches,
radial ribbons that taper
to barely visible, barely tangible,
diaphanous feathers of nerve-wires.
Compacted miles of forest fungus
riddle the woodland soil,
gauze-silken nets of subterranean fern
rippling with each wave of loam-warmth,
feeding off the trees, feeding the trees,
finest tendril-tips defying the senses.
But sea creatures hear the susurrus of the sea-sorrel;
earth denizens hear the secret sigh of the saprophyte.
In dark caves the hand draws floating creatures
with finger-paint grace and smoky pigment:
half is ground quartz and manganese dioxide,
half is calcium phosphate, pestle-powder
remains of the beasts’ own bones and blood.
In the Paris Jardin des Plantes sits Nabokov’s ape,
trained and coaxed month on month on year
to recognise images and to use the pencil:
free at last with blank paper and charcoal
he immediately sketches the bars of his cage.
All these symphonies, these ballads, sculptures,
tragedies, comedies, dances, films, poems,
string quartets, paintings, novels, songs:
from fecund compost of our own bones and bars
creation springs, cage defined and marrow-deep.
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